The Castle's Under Siege

im getting seriously sick of myself. i feel like im going insane, i might have to start taking stuff daily again because i really cant deal with it atm. I had such a nice morning, me and jack were the only ones in our castles module so we spent the morning together at the lecture, having breakfast then walking back together, talking and laughing and bantering the whole time and then just like that this afternoon because everyone else was there, we dont really speak and seriously it has put me on such a downer like i dont even knwo why, i dont understand. I would just like a day where my feelings dont sky rocket from one extreme to the other, please.

fuck everything.